Live for Love: i like him a lot.. that's all i could say.

this is the guy i've been crushing on for more than a year now. i don't know why, well, no, scratch that. i do know why but what i meant was that i don't know why cuz he's older. i'm usually not so into older guys. he's like what? 27 or 28. i can't help it though. you won't meet a lot of guys like him. he's funny , very intelectual and a man of faith. oh and did i mention he's italian?! hello? i love everything about italy.. honestly, i think that's what attracted me the most to him. it's just too bad i have no courage to tell him how i really feel about him. and i tend to ignore him most of the time because i don't want to seem too obvious that i'm drooling over the sight of him. i know.. i'm such a dork.

i love it though when he just makes everyone laugh with his silly little corny jokes (he loves fob filipino jokes btw. LOL). and if you know me well enough, you know that even the littlest things could make me laugh. i love to laugh. and he talks a lot too.. which is kind of perfect cuz i like to listen in most of the time. i'm the listenning type.. although i could talk a lot (depending on who i'm talking to) but i preffer to stay quiet most of the time.

heh. enough of the emo stuff. anyways, i guess i got into this mood cuz jane and i have been emailing each other and been discussing guys in general. kind of complicated right now. haha. sucha dorky thing to say. forreals though. i like this guy a lot. i think, i might even be falling for him. but at the same time, i'm scared because i could never really tell what the outcome is. and plus, i already told myself that i'd give up dating or even looking for awhile. i don't know? it just seems like a waste of time when almost all the guys my age are into the opposite stuff that i'm into. i'm not saying guys my age are incompetent but.. ugh.. i told you it's complicated. i can't even explain myself.

to quote jane..